*Light encoded for your awakening journey.*
OK, so last time, I attempted to make a comprehensive list of Ascension symptoms. Did you check out the list and pick out any that you might have experienced? Did any of it “ring true” or do you just think that I might be full of it? (Maybe that’s why my eyes are brown. 😉) I have experienced several of these over the years. I am going to share those with you, but first I have to say, just because you have any of these symptoms, they are not necessarily related to Ascension. Make sure you see a doctor and rule out any physical or mental/emotional issues or defects. If your doctor finds an “organic” cause (for lack of a better word at the moment), then it is probably not an Ascension symptom. Ascension symptoms are things which your doctor cannot explain away with traditional Western medicine. For example, you are having heart palpitations and you see your doctor and he or she can find nothing wrong with your heart after a complete physical and an EKG. That’s probably an Ascension symptom. If they see changes in your EKG, your heart palpitations are not an Ascension symptom. Or, you can’t sleep at night because all you are thinking about is the problem with your boss at work, or your kid failing math class or how you’re going to pay college tuition. This is insomnia due to stress, not an Ascension symptom. You will see more examples of this when I share my personal symptom experiences. I just want to make sure that you don’t just write off any ailment to Ascension and not seek help when you should.
Not only are individuals experiencing Ascension, but so is Gaia (Mother Earth) and all things on her. Plants, animals, people, and Gaia herself are raising their level of vibration, their frequency. Gaia is experiencing her own physical symptoms of Ascension in the form of earthquakes, volcanoes, wildfires and other atmospheric activity. She is cleansing herself and releasing lower vibrational energies. Our society as a whole, as a collective, is also undergoing Ascension symptoms. Look at all the divisiveness going on now and over the past year before, during and after the U.S. presidential election. The KKK “showed up” again because racism has not been truly dealt with yet. Much corruption and criminal activity has been exposed (think of the Hollywood sex abuse scandal). Other things will continue to well up. It is a turbulent time in the history of the Gaia and humanity. All denser energies that do not serve the good of humanity or Gaia as a collective must be exposed and released to move on and up (see my HGTV analogy below).
I have had Ascension symptoms for literally years. Like many people, I started having symptoms before I was even aware of what Ascension was. Just like in the present time, many people are Ascending and have no idea why such crazy things are happening to them now. I compared Ascension to pregnancy before. I could also compare it to one of those home remodeling shows on HGTV. Someone buys an old, outdated house filled with junk from the past. The first thing they have to do is clean out all the junk, then demolish the walls, remove the outdated or broken kitchen appliances and old carpet that stopped serving their purpose long ago. Only when all the old, dirty and dilapidated stuff is removed can the rebuilding of the bright, shiny, beautiful new house begin. The old must be torn down before the new can be rebuilt.
The other thing I did not mention about Ascension symptoms is what I would consider the biggest symptom of all—the “Dark Night of the Soul.” This is basically when all your shit hits the fan; when all your baggage pops open at the airport of life and all your crap spills out all over the place. It is your own personal rock bottom, whatever that might be. If you are a hardcore recovering addict, your Dark Soul of the Night may have been waking up half-naked, cold and scrawny by a dumpster with no more money, no more dignity, no idea when you last ate or where your next meal was coming from and no more family because you threw everything else away one too many times in order to get your fix on. The Dark Night of the Soul is when everything that you have been stuffing and pushing down all your life because you didn’t want to deal with it (or even better, just plain old denied it ever happened in the first place) comes calling with a vengeance. For me, it was when I was in the process of finally dealing with abuse I had experienced as a child.
If you have ever been in therapy, you know that you have to share your painful details with your therapist in order to work through your shit. This is repeated in group therapy when you join the group and also whenever someone new joins the group so that everyone is up to speed, so to speak. It’s hard to tell your story once, but I had had to share it multiple times with the group. I went to an individual session once per week and a group session once per week. I was reliving it again and again with each new telling. I don’t remember how far into counseling I was. No more than a year, I would guess. I just remember being so emotionally wrung out that I was numb; so numb that my face was tingling like when your foot falls asleep from sitting on it too long. I was so numb that I wanted to feel anything. I filled my bathtub with water and took a #11 blade and proceeded to scratch myself tracing the vein that runs up the side of my arm from below the thumb toward the elbow. I traced about 1.5-2 inches in little scratches until I bled. Don’t get me wrong, I did draw blood, but I was not suicidal. I had no intention of killing myself. It was not nearly that deep; I just curious to see if I was so emotionally numb that I was also physically numb. That was over 25 years ago; I still have that scar.
Soon after that quiet little melt down, I got a call from my therapist. She was giving up her practice. I was going to have to start all over again with another therapist and maybe another group. I was going to have to keep reliving my memories over and over again. No quiet little melt down this time. This time I cried and I wailed and I screamed in anguish. I picked up the phone and screamed terrible things at my mother about how this was all her fault and how I hated her for it. I then proceeded to beat the wall with the handset from the phone while I continued to scream. I was waaaayy over the edge. I did not know that my step-dad was on the other line. He was pissed!! Much to my mother’s credit, she got in her car and drove straight to me in record time (it was about an hour drive). She beat on my door till I answered it and stayed with me through the night. That may have been the worst night of both our lives. I don’t know about her for sure, but it was for me. Actually, she has been widowed twice, so probably not for her. She was very unhappy to see that scab on my wrist, to say the least.
Eventually, I got it together and I got a new therapist. I did not join another group. I was in therapy for two or three years. I have not been back. Maybe one day I will go back, maybe I won’t. Time will tell. So far, so good. My mom and I have an excellent relationship now and Dad eventually forgave me. I am sure Mom smoothed it over with him for me. Coming to me that day was the best thing she could have done. I am forever grateful that she did. XXO, my Mommy, XXO!!
Compared to the Dark Night of the Soul, all the Ascension symptoms on the list are chump change. They are a nuisance. The Dark Night of the Soul is the Big Kahuna. It’s a bitch, but it must be done if you have that kind of baggage. Your baggage may not be as big as mine was, or it might be even bigger. Either way, it’s got to go. Many people have issues in their lives that they do not want to deal with. Instead of facing them, they choose to drown them in addictions of one kind or another. They relive them over and over again in the same scenario with slightly different characters. They push it down until it explodes in a suicide or a mass shooting or some other tragedy. They do not deal with these things because they have become so used to having them around that they are afraid to be without them. They are afraid of losing that part of them because they identify with it so strongly. For some, it is all they have known for years and years. Their fear of the unknown (being healed) is greater than their fear of whatever trauma or abuse they have experienced or are continuing to experience. They prefer the devil they know to the one that they don’t. Because of that fear, they are caught in a repeating loop of fear, depression, violence, anger, etc.
I am here to tell you to KICK that devil to the curb! Kick his ass!! Let go of the fear!! It is not you! LET the Light IN!! BE FREE!! You will enjoy the new sunshine in your life more than you could ever imagine!! DO IT!!!
Well, this just went off on a tangent, didn’t it?? I came on here with every intention of writing about my personal Ascension symptoms over the years. Hmmm. Guess there will have to be a Part III. What was symptom number 4 again? Oh, yeah, “Old ‘stuff’ seems to be coming up.” CHECK!
Thanks for reading!
Peace, Love and Light,
Aunt Jeannie